Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	page avenue - story of the year

we wont forget, that girl posessed
There are so many things I want to write about right now, and there are so many things on my mind. However it almost 4 am and you wont believe how tired I am right now.There we are that’s my excuse for a short diary enty. And the fact that I have to go to work at 10am Is really not helping at all.

Its weird, I used to love writing in my diary, and constantly dream about the things I could be writing. This happened tonight, I was sitting in the crew bar, imagining what I could be writing right now. My laptop was even there at my feet, waiting for me to pull it out of the bag and start typing. The amount of people around me stopped me doing that. And then within half an hour, my idea had gone.

I was so torn tonight. Well at least I thought I was torn. But then I thought about it so much, and looked at what I was supposedly torn between, and realised, of course, I wasn’t torn at all. I knew exactley what I wanted, and there was nothing to change my mind. Of course I cant have what I want right now, and I just have to stop being scared that it wont be there for me when I get home. If It makes any difference, we made promises to each other, a promise not to forget each other, and in this lonely place I am at right now, I don’t think it will be possible to forget him.


What scares me is that it would be so easy for him to forget me. And that scares me because I think I am on the edge of something new….